genet (enveri) wrote,

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The other day, my best friend and I were discussing how, as our lives have changed and we've become happier, our friendships have changed, and some have gone by the wayside.

Something happened tonight that kind of.. ran the point home.

I've been avoiding people a bit lately, mostly because I just couldn't handle this type of thing. There are quite a few really great people in my life that need... well.. they need things I just can't give them anymore.

I can't reassure you anymore. I can't give you what you want and need. I can't spend hours telling you that yes, you are a worthwhile person, and that yes, I care about you very much.

You are- and I do; but I don't have the time, energy or patience to reassure you until you believe it yourself. I'm not going to hold your hand. I'm going to make you stand on your own. When you need me, I'll be there to steady and support you, but I'm not going to carry you all the time anymore.

Tonight, the straw that broke the camel's back was laid.

I'm sorry folks. I'm going away for a while. I'm tired of extending my hands and trying to help, then getting slapped for it.

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