This past week has been extremely stressful at work, I had someone from HP call and get extremely rude with me when I wouldn't do what she wanted me to (If I had done it, I probably would have been fired on the spot), and RB has been... getting on my nerves. Night before last, one of our field managers called in regarding the bitch at HP, and RB just... couldn't tell me what he wanted. She said that he was angry about someone giving out his cell number, when really what he was asking was, who took the call from hp. She ended up giving the phone over to me, which was good, since I was the one he needed to talk to, but... The woman seems to have no skill at customer service. At all. She didn't ask pertinent questions, she just threw up her hands and said 'let me give you to Lydia'.. without asking if I was busy or anything.
THEN. She didn't show up yesterday. VC decided I could do her job and mine as well... and we had a problem call come in, so a field manager started chewing on me for things I couldn't control, and I just lost it. I started bawling, hung up the phone and retreated to the ladies room. The icing on the cake was that one of my male coworkers saw me crying. How humiliating.
I am beginning to hate VC.
She knows that I work in FTF. She took up a lot of my time yesterday telling me that I would have to train RB on this and that and the other. I don't know why she bothered telling me this. Even if I did train RB, she would just come in behind me and tell her something different.
I wish RB was bright enough to do things on her own and not have to have one of us hold her hand constantly. I really wish that the hand holding job wasn't designated to me. And I *really* wish that VC would quit. Or be transferred. Or just... get the hell off my back. Yesterday, Judy wasn't there, so I think that's why VC was so damned agressive. I don't know. One of these days, I AM going to tell her off. I particularly like the phrase feren gave me: 'Much as I'd love to sit here and listen to the wind whistle through your ears, I have work to do.'
If my days have been hell, the evenings have been heaven. It's taken a lot of concentration on my part, and a lot of work, but I've really managed to let things go when roho gets home from work and logs in. All week long we've had nice quiet evenings together online without the pall of frustration or depression tinging them. I've found that when I let him, he can melt away the stress of the day, and we both enjoy our quality time together much more.
When I got home last night he was lounging in the bathtub, so I curled up in the bathroom and spent a good 30 minutes just chatting about.... stuff. Nothing important... how our days went, general things. Much like we did when we first started dating. The past couple of weeks, that magic that we felt when we first fell in love has been in full evidence, and it's just... mmm. Been incredible. :) Not that it ever went TOTALLY away... just that it was hidden behind other cares, other worries.
I guess I just realized that nothing really matters.. as long as I'm with him. All of my financial cares and worries... my job... my diet... it's all things that yes, are important, but not so important that I need to get up tight over them. Bren has my back, and is there to support me when I need it. I think that was the biggest realization of all. I'm not used to having someone that I can depend on when I need it. I'm used to being the strong one; always supportive, never being supported. It's really really nice.
I should probably start getting ready to head to work... there are a few things I need to do once I get there.
Oh.. and since I forgot to include it in the email, Roho, there's something in the freezer for your dinner tonight. I love you. :)