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I should probably post an update so that people know I’m not dead.

So. Yes. Not dead. We’re in the middle of moving (officially next week), so if you have reason to want/need our new address, ping me and I’ll send it to you. For those that missed this news, our landlord sold the multi-family house we were renting an apartment in, and the new owners jacked the rent by $500. Even if they hadn’t raised the rent to lolwut levels, we would have moved anyway- we had a wonderful roommate moving in, and our place just wasn’t big enough for three.

So we found a stunningly beautiful 4 bedroom apartment just a mile away, and this scruffy looking guy that used to lurk around our couch eating cheesecake decided he was tired of his basement and claimed one of the bedrooms for himself. So now there are four of us, and it is good. (I am truly happy, J is like a brother to me, and C is just amazing.)

We cannot wait to get out of this apartment. Sometime in late July, early August, our landlord was having work done on the third floor. The contractors were, I suspect, a ‘friend of a friend’ type deal, and opened one of the water valves then left the premises. This flooded the third floor crawlspace, which then proceeded to flood the second floor, and… yep, you guessed it; it was raining indoors on the first floor, where we live. The landlord had us (Bren) crawling around in the crawlspace with its wet, exposed wiring to turn the valves off, then told us ‘just open the windows, it’ll be fine’. The water damage in the ceiling and walls is already molding. (this was during the 95+ degree heat wave Boston suffered this summer)

Those of you following along at home might remember that I have breathing problems. We’ve confirmed with some very thorough allergy tests that I am not actually allergic, but I apparently have a very high sensitivity to ‘unclean’ air. Even with an air purifier going 24/7 in our bedroom, I’m wheezing and coughing quite a lot, and it’s only getting worse. It will be a relief to be gone.

Secondly, I bit the bullet and called a therapist. It took some time to find someone, but I am seeing a very nice psychologist that reminds both Bren and I disturbingly of his mother. She is, I think, what I’ve always expected a therapist to be like; someone that asks very pointed questions, then digs down into the answers to get to the truth, not someone that accepts everything that is said as factual. I have several appointments lined up with her, and she is cool with Bren coming with me, which relieves a lot of anxiety.

Interestingly enough, she said that the bipolar II diagnosis may not be correct; that a lot of people are misdiagnosed because they are suffering from agitation, not true mania. I haven’t had any episodes of mania since I left Illinois, so… we’ll see! I liked that she actually wants to do some therapy first to get a solid diagnosis before we start talking medications. After last time, I’m all for that, although if my insomnia problems continue, I will probably ask for something to help me sleep.

I still play Warcraft. A lot. But we picked up Guild Wars 2—I had been hearing all sorts of great things about it, and the lack of a subscription fee meant that if I hated it, I was only out the purchase price of the game, which… given my Skyrim experience, wasn’t that big a deal to me. C and I absolutely love it. We play on Tarnished Coast, the RP server, and it’s enough like Warcraft that it was easy for me to pick up and play, and different enough that it’s holding my interest.

I liked it enough, in fact, that Bren and J went out last weekend and bought copies too. I think the massive difference between GW2 and Rifts (which I also tried) is that Rifts immediately started offering obscenely low prices on buying the game, which made me feel like they were desperate for subscribers. I mean, immediately after release they were offering it for $4.99. And while it was a neat game, I think it’s already on its way out—I’ve seen quite a few people that left WoW for Rifts are back to dancing to Blizzard’s tune, and part of the appeal of MMORPGs is the MM.

Do I think GW2 is going to be around for a while? It’s difficult to say, really. It seems to me that their launch was an immense success, and I like the stand the company has taken toward their player’s experience (they shut down sales so that the servers would not get overcrowded). I like the gameplay, I love. LOVE the world. It’s occasionally frustrating, and sometimes the quests make me rage, but I think I’ve already gotten my money’s worth out of it, and I’m excited about continuing to play it.

Warcraft is still my number one game, however, and with the new expansion looming, I’m not really anticipating that will change. I have bitten the bullet and faction transferred my beloved shaman to Horde and joined a raiding guild. Their hours are fantastic, and I really really like what I have seen thusfar of the guild. I’m not sure how they manage to give the feel of a purely social guild and still field 3 progression raiding teams, but they seem to do it!

The rest of my alts will stay Alliance; most of them have RP backstories and plotlines that are faction dependent, and I like the guild I’m in Blueside. It’s become, I think, difficult to find a good guild that doesn’t make jokes that are inappropriate and mean-spirited, and yet is still active and friendly and everyone more or less gets along. They’re certainly out there, but many of them are ‘friends and immediate family’ type guilds, and you’re lucky to have two people logged in at any given time. That could be due in part to the End-of-Expansion population slump. Cataclysm was underwhelming in many ways and outright terrible in others, so it’s unsurprising that MegaGuilds would form. And those are not for me.

I am feeling a bit of…angst? Anxiety? Uncertainty? About moving Enveri to Horde. I’ve been Alliance for the last 7 years, and I have never had a level-capped horde character. I am hoping that feeling eases. (Also, Blizz? Seriously, hate the totem changes. For reals.)

We have a tabletop Deadlands game starting up sometime after we’re settled in. Points is running it, and from all accounts, I should be afraid. I’m more excited than anything, even though I know diddly about the setting. I’ve missed tabletop gaming; not so much the game itself as the camaraderie and social aspects of gathering together with snacks and beverages and dice. I know I am going to play a Bounty Hunter, but beyond that my character is a blank slate.

I have a lot of writing brewing. I’ve been trying to do a daily drabble-y something, but with work getting stressful and busy I haven’t quite had time. But I am averaging 2-3 shorts a week, which pleases me. I have not yet figured out if I want to try broadening my audience. Perhaps I will post the stories to DeviantArt or something.

Anyway, that’s the state of things. Now back to work!


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Sep. 6th, 2012 02:09 pm (UTC)
Rift had several problems:

(1) The dynamic content (the rifts) was grindy after the novelty wore off.

(2) There was only a single level of difficulty in the end game raids, and they tuned them too high.

(3) The grindiness was amplified greatly when they added Planar Attunement. This was like EQ's AA. This also killed the idea of playing alts, and made it hard to catch up for new players.

Having said that, I stuck around until the guild I had been raiding with went to SWTOR (which they left a few months later). At that point Blizzard was acting contrite enough about the Cataclysm fiasco that I felt I could return.
Sep. 6th, 2012 02:32 pm (UTC)
I never got beyond level 8 or so, so I didn't know what the other issues were. I got the game to play with friends, but it didn't really... grab me enough, I think, to play when they weren't around.

Guildwars definitely has.
Sep. 6th, 2012 03:37 pm (UTC)
The story had a kind of Generic Extruded Fantasy Product feel to it, and the world was rather small (to keep people dense enough to do the rifts, I imagine).

Don't get me wrong -- I didn't dislike the game -- but it wasn't exceptional enough to keep me from eventually deciding I'd played it enough.

I think Trion ended up making a good return on it. I think the whole thing cost them about $50 M to put together, and some of that was on infrastructure they're using (or will be using) for other games.

BTW, did you start it up on day 1, or did you come in later? The rifts/events in the lower zones had a very different feel when the zones were well populated.
Sep. 6th, 2012 04:48 pm (UTC)
It was pretty early on, I think.
Sep. 6th, 2012 02:39 pm (UTC)
The guild is pretty amazing. I instantly felt at home there; the people are simply wonderful, fun and considerate. I am completely in love with Guild Wars right now, though. My little engineer is fun as heck to play.

Grats on the new apartment and finding a therapist you seem to like. That last one is harder than people think. I'm so lucky that I clicked with my therapist instantly. I'm glad that seems to be the case with you.
Sep. 6th, 2012 02:56 pm (UTC)
I think once I get settled in and some of the dust settles in my life (moving, etc) I'll feel a little more grounded and less 'ohgod did I make a mistake? D:' about it.

I'm really psyched to be raiding again though, and I feel really good about the guild, so... I'm sure it'll pass. :) My primary RP partner brought a character over (Although she decided she didn't want to app to the guild), so that helps too. :)
Sep. 6th, 2012 06:48 pm (UTC)
I'm seriously loving that about GW2... the only time I have seen anything remotely lulzy has been Queensdale and even that was nothing compared to what I've seen on a lot of WoW server trade channels (much less LFG). It's amazing to see general conversational chatter going on and folks being nice if someone asks a question.

I'm loving my little engineer too. I just got the skill that turns all your abilities into flamethrowers, mwahahahaha.

edit: and I realize I misread "guild" as "game"... whoops. Things one does when in the middle of thwanging jaw pain. (Dentist can't figure out what's going on, I get antibiotics, hopefully they do something cuz this is ridiculous.) So I totally misread you on that being about the GW2 community, which, well, see above.

But as far as R I have been really impressed there just the short while I have had a character there. Folks are awesome and I love seeing so many people willing to help each other out. (With GW2 taking up most of my time I haven't really been on Alynthia so much, but I figure once Mists comes out I'll probably swing back that way again.)

Edited at 2012-09-07 12:33 am (UTC)
Sep. 7th, 2012 01:40 am (UTC)
I am probably gonna be playing Makhano a bit more in the coming weeks, so if you wanna bum around and do something together.. You know where to find me. <3

(I am excited to be raid healing again)
Sep. 7th, 2012 12:28 am (UTC)
Our guild of 5+ years (and we've known people in that guild for longer) disintegrated about the time SW:TOR came out. We swapped to a guild we've had our eyes on for a while - it's a friendly, active guild that happens to raid... Which, with the introduction of LFR, has moved further down our priority list.

We like the group, but it's a guild that's been around for 7+ years, so we're still very much the new people in town. It'll take us time to get used to the folks there, and them to us.
Sep. 7th, 2012 01:36 am (UTC)
Yeah, I think that's part of it. The other part is... Bren is die-hard Alliance, and so is C, my primary 'let's fart around in WoW' partner. She moved one of her characters over, and went to a different guild, but I am still having that 'new kid in town, don't know nobody :(' feeling.

It's always tough when people you've known for years disintegrate; our EQ2 guild that Bren was in EQ1 with (so he had known these folks going on 6 years) fell apart amidst... alot of drama (We got our own Encyclopedia Dramatica article).
Sep. 12th, 2012 12:41 am (UTC)
I felt the same way, though my wait between posts was a bit longer (16-months) and my post was considerably shorter... But it's the thought that counts, right? :)
Sep. 21st, 2012 11:34 am (UTC)
Hey, I know I'm late on this, but I just wanted to leave you a note to say hello. I've been missing you in WoW, and I know we've both been pretty busy. I'm taking classes now for my new job, and that's been a little overwhelming for me. But I've been wondering how you're doing.

I'd like to get together with you soon, if that's alright with you. Maybe you could introduce me to your GW2 guild, or I might see you soon in MoP. I hope to hear from you. :)

Edited at 2012-09-21 11:35 am (UTC)
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